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Thursday, January 23, 2020

DAILY RAMBLINGS....Day Nine


        
January 23rd.....‘DAILY RAMBLINGS’
        Day Nine

The following free verse was one I composed in April 2019.  It was one of the poem a day pieces I composed during National Poetry Month.  As I have said before when I do the challenge quite a few of the pieces I compose are actually about what is going on in my life at the time.  This was one of the things going on back then. At the time I was the head officer of a local veterans organization.  I held the position for three years; as well as this I held the third highest office in the same organization within my state.  Due to personal problems,  which were health issues with my husband,  I advised the state I would not not seek the next highest office (which would be second highest state office).  No problems from the powers that be.  They accepted my decision and knew that MY FAMILY came first and foremost, which it should. Unfortunately at the local level I was treated unfairly.  I was asked why I could not take lesser officership position.  Duh, any officership position still would make me responsible to the organization.  I needed to be just a regular person to take care of what I needed.  I explained over and over but as the piece says my explanation fell on deaf ears or in one ear and out the other. Being asked over and over why I was doing what I was doing got me riled. If only people shut up to listen, but as soon I tried to explain all I received in return was grief.  It seemed NO ONE listened to me. Finally I got to the point where I was so upset about hearing grief for my decisions I began to hyperventilate and throw up.  Still it did not dawn on people I had issues.  Why is it people only want to hear what they want?  Why do people keep asking the same questions over and over as if they were law enforcement and you a suspect or person of interest?  Quite a few individuals need to give attention when being spoken to; need to hear exactly what is being said to them. You should wait till someone finishes speaking before you start to question their motives.  I’ve always given courtesy to the person speaking before commenting or asking questions.  There are some people who jump into the conversation before hearing the other person out.  It’s only good manners and common sense. As I feel if you have a question about something, they may be answering it before hand.  I bring this up as I’ve been hearing similar problems from others.  Please remember that FAMILY comes first.  Organizations and volunteer work come second in your life.  Don’t let anyone bully you into thinking you’re letting down an organization if you can’t give it your all.  You need to think of yourself; your well being; your family and their needs first. 
Do what you can do and if it’s not appreciated then think this; Do you really need to be a member of that group? Any group or organization will be happy to accept whatever time you can provide.  
Until tomorrow....have a terrific Thursday. 


“THE INTERROGATORS 
© Scottie-ann Murphy


“What do you not undestood?
   I tell you I must take a give up certain 
         things
    unable to do them......need to look out for 
              myself
What is not understood?”

“Why must you ...why....why?”

Questions asked over 
       and over 
               and over again
Like a dog with a bone 
       unable to give it a rest.....
         questions.....the same questions 
              WHY?  WHY? WHY?

I repeat the answer....over 
         and over 
               and over again
     I’m tired of repeating myself.....
         sounding like a broken record

“What is it you don’t understand?”

Some people...bull headed....
      thick headed or just plain unable to comprehend what’s being said to them

So I keep answering the same questions 
       over......
               and over......
                     and yet over again

I feel like a suspect being interrogated by 
      the police 
 Except these are not law enforcement personnel 
     but......individuals who can not take the fact that at this time 
   I must put my family and myself first
         Not their organization 










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